Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Thinking about the times with my Miss. Hardin

Up late and wish I could go to sleep but thanks to my three year old, I guess we will be staying up tonight. I was flipping the remote and came across the show "The Golden Girls'. I love this show, but it was the strangest feeling tonight as I was watching the show, I could feel myself in my grandma's house when I was little watching that show. I could feel the heat in her house, because she use to keep her house so hot. I could just feel the whole scene of us watching this show, up late at night like we use to. I do miss her, I use to stay with her a lot on weekends and I always had fun. She would let me paint her nails and fix her hair, man did she love to shop. Because she drove so slow, it use to take us forever to get to the mall but once we got there, she could out walk me in the mall. She was someone that never judged people, once I was a teenager and got into an argument with my mom, I could go spend the night with her and she would ask no questions and still have my cereal ready for me the next morning. I remember I always called her Mrs. Hardin because everyone around me called her that, anyways she use to ask me to call her Grandma or Minnie. I remember trying but it just never sounded right to me. I sure do wish now that I would have called her one of those names. Most importantly she loved the Lord, she use to love dressing up and going to church. My mom raised me as a Jehovah's wittiness and she use to beg me to just try going to church and every since the day she went to be with the Lord I have attended her home church. I miss my grandma (aka, Miss Hardin and Melvenna)

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Two year Anniversary

Happy Two Year Anniversary to my wonderful husband and I!!
 It is so hard to believe it has been two year already, but we have made it and we are happy. Not to say we have not had our ups and downs because it is no secret that the devil has pulled at us in every way these past two years. I truly think that has made us even stronger, they say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger...... WOW if that is not the truth I don't know what is. I must admit that I do hope the worst is behind us and now we just move forward but I think we are both aware that if the devil is not on your back then you are not living like you should. 
 I feel so lucky to have slipped up and met a man that loves Josh and Katie like they are his and that does everything he can to make us happy. I pray this next year together will just bring us even more closer to God, to each other, and just close as a family. I love you Michael Dwayne Tuck and hope to have many many more years with you.

Monday, May 14, 2012

Josh's 11th and Katie's 9th Birthday party!!

 My babies are growing up and that is no secret!! This year I tried to make them have a special birthday party and it seemed successful, I had it at Trinity Health and fittnes and it was a swim party. I, like any other parent was so worried that nobody would show up but this year I am so thankful for everyone that showed up and showed my kids love. There was such a great turn out that I did not even get a piece of cake! Every kid that left said they had a great time and Josh and Katie had the biggest smiles on there face the whole time. By the end of the party I was one tired but happy mama!!

A poem that touched me


© Potsim And Pikachu
I was once sad and lonely,
Having nobody to comfort me,
So I wore a mask that always smiled;
To hide my feelings behind a lie.

Before long, I had many friends;
With my mask, I was one of them.
But deep inside, I still felt empty,
Like I was missing a part of me.

Nobody could hear my cries at night
For I designed my mask to hide the lies.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling
For I designed my mask to be laughing.

Behind all the smiles were the tears
And behind all the comfort were the fears.
Everything you think you see,
Wasn't everything there was to me.

Day by day,
I was slowly dying.
I couldn't go on,
There was something missing..

Until now I'm still searching
For the thing that'll stop my crying.
For someone who'll erase my fears,
For the person who'll wipe my tears.

But till then I'll keep on smiling.
Hiding behind this mask I'm wearing.
Hoping one day I can smile,
Till then, I'll be here.. waiting.

Source: My Mask That Always Smiled, Alone Poem http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/my-mask-that-always-smiled#ixzz1uthkQpxu