Tuesday, January 31, 2012

What a dissappointment

I am a person that does not like change but I realize when it is time to make change. Over the past year my husband and I have not had a spiritual happiness. I am determined to find that happiness so I know I have got to move on and find a new church home. I was raised mostly  a Jehovah's witness and I know that is not what I want. As I was being raised I was always told that people in a church will look down on you and they are all hypocrites. I found that to be true in the church of Jehovah witnesses, I seen lots of different groups. I started going to a Baptist church and at first, not one person treated me different and my husband loved it! Well, that changed... The past year has been so uncomfortable to keep going and just hope that people will want to hang with us or maybe not act like we are in the room. I can't say how hurt I am. I have never seen this many fake people but I know I will find happiness again and if not at the next place I look I will keep searching!

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

My pity party

 I don't really know what is going on with me. I am so depressed lately and I can't seem to overcome it. My back pain is severe and the arthritis I have is just unbearable. I feel like I am always hiding my pain and I don't know why. I just pray that we get medical insurance soon. I know how bad I need medicine. The worst is that I have not been to school in 5 weeks :( The last week I went I took Josh and Katie with me to do there hair and I was crying in pain. I can't believe I jumped into this without thinking of my pain. I was just so happy when I got a call asking me did I want to come and do something I always wanted to do. I can't believe I am 32 and in so much pain