My pity party

 I don't really know what is going on with me. I am so depressed lately and I can't seem to overcome it. My back pain is severe and the arthritis I have is just unbearable. I feel like I am always hiding my pain and I don't know why. I just pray that we get medical insurance soon. I know how bad I need medicine. The worst is that I have not been to school in 5 weeks :( The last week I went I took Josh and Katie with me to do there hair and I was crying in pain. I can't believe I jumped into this without thinking of my pain. I was just so happy when I got a call asking me did I want to come and do something I always wanted to do. I can't believe I am 32 and in so much pain