Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Bittersweet learning experience!!
I got to write about all my learning experiences and this one was a good one. I have become religious the past few years of my life and I am proud of my relationship I have with God. Along with that I had to learn the hard way that you don't go to church for friends. I got burned but it made me stronger. I was a stay at home mother and I am the first to admit that gets lonely but I now know that there is always going to be clicks in church or where ever it may be. I realize you cannot change it. I am my simple redneck self and that is who I am. I love people and I hurt easy. I know I have changed because I am determined that I don't need the friends that are not real. I now go to church for God and God only. I was stupid and thought that maybe I could find some good wholesome friends but I am okay with what it may be now. I sometimes wonder what is wrong with me and why is it hard for me to have friends that truly like me for who I am but I know God will take care of me. I am thankful to God for not letting me go..... I see now that I cannot keep running from my problems just because I am upset. God will make me happy one day as far as having friends and in ever other way I need. I know the devil knows how to get me and I know my weakness just as he does.